Michelle and I

Forty-two days after burying his daughter, Alfred Mall saw her again.

Sitting on his sofa on an ordinary afternoon, Alfred was given a vision he had prayed for but never expected to receive: his daughter Michelle, standing beside Jesus, at peace, smiling, whole. It was the answer to a plea he'd carried since her final breath -- one last glimpse of assurance that she was safe in the arms of God.

Michelle and I: Journey into Eternity is Alfred's raw and searching account of losing his daughter to a brain tumor, of sitting beside her bed as she took her last breath, and of the divine encounter that followed -- one that reshaped a lifetime of questions he had carried as a professor of world religions and a man of faith. Drawing on decades of theological study and his own unfiltered grief, Alfred wrestles with the hardest questions a parent of faith can ask: Why does God heal some and not others? What does it mean when the eternal God himself "breathed his last"? And what does Jesus actually look like?

This is not a tidy story of grief resolved. It is an honest, sometimes painful, often luminous testimony from a father who refused to let go of his daughter -- or his questions -- without a fight.

For anyone who has lost someone they love and longed for a sign that they are safe, Alfred's story offers companionship, honesty, and hope.